Losing It (The Weight, That Is)

not super excited

2011-11-17T08:40:00.001-08:00

dont get me wrong. im excited.

but, not super excited.

its that time of the month.

so i feel bloated.

so im hoping that next tuesday when i weigh in (right before we head to AZ to stuff our faces for thanksgiving)

that ill weigh in better. id REALLY love to see 155 on the scale by then. but i know thats hoping for a lot.

but as of today - i am 157.6.

down almost a full 8lbs.

and sure in like 14 days, thats pretty good.

anyway - hoping for a "whoosh" over the weekend.

nathan is doing awesome. and im really proud of him!

checkin in

2011-11-15T10:05:00.001-08:00

nathan is down into the 180s! he hasnt seen those numbers in a very long time.

he was able to wear a pair of really nice work pants today that he hasnt worn in years. they looked SAWEET!

gosh im funny.

so nathan is down 9lbs.

i am holding steady at the 158/159 mark. but im hoping for a big whooosh at the end of the week - because its that time of the month. and man i feel bloated.

if i can get lose 3lbs before next thursday, id be super stoked. so send good thoughts my way!!

i took a hammer to that plateau

2011-11-10T12:59:00.001-08:00

sorry i forgot to check in yesterday.

but good news is in store!!

after 8 days of the dukan diet, i am down 7.2lbs

weighing in this morning at 158.2

that is for sure the lowest i have been since we lived in utah.

13 lbs and ill weigh what i weighed when we got married.

that number seems so small to me - when i started this journey - and dont get me wrong, its been a long long time, too long - i needed to lose 45lbs.

45 lbs isnt that much, i guess, and it shouldnt take me this long to reach that goal.

but this is a struggle for me. day in and day out.

im happy to breakthrough the 160 plateau and am hoping that i can see 155 soon!

weighing in

2011-11-07T18:40:00.000-08:00

hey kids.

started a new diet.

debating whether i should start a new blog. but - until then - nathan and i are doing the dukan diet.

and this morning i am weighing in at 159.8

i havent seen the 150s since june of 2010. when i was basically 159.8. this is my hover point. this is where i plateau (previously)

so heres to hoping that i break through that and see some great (lower) numbers on the scale.

we started on wednesday - where i weighed in at a horrible 165.4

so ill give you an update on wednesday to see what a week can do.

and then wednesdays from here on out.

ill also share some recipes im trying for this bad boy - and when all you get is some protein, veg and oat bran - you need some recipes to shake it up!

(in related news - nathan is down 6 lbs too! wooohooo!)

weighing in

2011-10-28T09:18:00.001-07:00

i did pretty okay this week. i really want to lose more than this ... but ill take any weightloss ;o)

162.2

i really want to see 152. so just gotta keep on truckin!

juicing

2011-10-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

well i was sick ... actually am sick. have been for a week now. so juicing all weekend was out.

im the kind who "feeds" a cold. or a fever. or a boo-boo. ;o)

so i practiced juicing. and have been replacing some meals with hearty veggie juices. but no fasting.

and i doubt i will.

i think ill just stick to this.

weighloss is insignificant. 163.2

but ill let you know on friday how its going. i will say, in the mean time, i love my new juicer!

yo yo yo yo

2011-10-20T15:51:00.000-07:00

another month ... another challenge.

alright kids. i want to break this 160ish plateau!

after my last weigh in, i got down to 160.5. but now its been some time. i was in AZ where all eating goes awry. annnnd im PMSing. welcome to my world.

so, im weighing in at 163.6 this morning.

nathan and i are doing a juice fast over the weekend to cleanse our bodies (and souls?) ...

then we are back to two shakes (or juices) and a reasonable dinner until thanksgiving.

where we will travel to AZ ... and like i said, all eating goes awry.

if i hit 152 before we go, i get to treat myself to a teeth whitening! yaay! ive got 5 weeks. i can do it.

in the mean time, i will let you know how juicing goes!

just an updated weigh in!

2011-09-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

like i said i am 7lbs down (even more today!)

but i did my measurements, and the difference is awesome

w1 w4

Bust 41 39

Chest 35 34

Nat Waist 35 34

Belly Button 39 38

Hips 43.5 41

Thigh 23.75 22.5

Knee 17.5 16.5

Calf 13 14 (!)

Bicep 12 11.25

Total Inches Lost: 9.5 (but considering where I gained an inch - I'm still pretty happy!)

1 month weigh in

2011-09-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

well i did not reach my goal
but im still happy.

i weighed in at 163.2 this morning. 7 lbs this month. not the 10 that i want. but, even if i could do that for two more months, i would be in my goal area. so im still feeling successful.

i lost .5% body fat.
i gained some muscle %.

so overall im feeling good. i will take my measurements later, and give you an update there.

weigh in

2011-08-23T11:57:00.000-07:00

alright peeps. its been three weeks. i am not on goal. unless there is a miracle in the next week, i will not hit 10lbs lost this month. but even if i keep losing at the rate i am now, i could be at END goal before christmas. and really, thats the most important.

the thing that has really helped this month is our spending fast. by having two related goals 1) not eating as many calories/not eating out and 2) not spending unnecessary money - we have had two reasons to say no to many temptations.

we are far from perfect. we have cheated. and we have LOVED it!

but let me get to the facts, people.

1) i am down to 165.6. not a huge loss over the week. but considering where i was over the weekend, i will take it. and since that is almost 5 lbs off the beginning of the month, im happy.

2) my body fat % is down again this week

and!

3) my muscle % is up!! which i hadnt seen before. so im super happy about that.

overall, three weeks in, and im feeling successful. not a success, yet. but on my way!

update

2011-08-19T14:50:00.000-07:00

my little friends ... i didnt completely fall off the wagon, ill have you know.

we had friends in town - and its very hard to stick to 1200 calories AND exericse when then kind of fun is happening.

good news is, i weighed in today at 166.4, only .2 over what i was last week. so while i did not lose anything, i didnt really gain (im not counting that .2lbs)

so i still need to lose 6lbs in 2 weeks, and while that may be nearly impossible, im really going to amp up my game for the next two weeks and see what i can accomplish.

in addition in the next couple of weeks, ill need to finish the 30 day shred video and post the results of that. im still working out on level two. and its still kicking my A.

in case you wondering.

11 of 27 down

2011-08-12T20:34:00.000-07:00

i didnt want to let yesterday get me down and out.

so...

i didnt.

despite my mum bringing over donuts, eating at the mall for lunch, and nathan using a pei wei gift card for dinner i was able to stay at 1200 calories today.

and i did level two jillian michaels shred.

im superproud of myself. i made good decisions all day regarding my food. and i even put half of my pei wei away. i did it as soon as nathan got home, so i wouldntbe tempted to eat it while watching tele. it sits patiently in my fridge for tomorrow.

i must tell you, i was helped immensely today by a new app i got from my fitness pal. it helped me look up lunch calories while i was atthe mall and for dinner.

another day down.

until tomorrow!

o no

2011-08-12T13:26:00.000-07:00

o readers. what happened? i took a day off.

not just, ooops! didnt get around to working out.

more like - UGH! i hate my life and i want to eat til i throw up and never work out again.

so i ate last nite. 600 calories over my goal calorie intake.

and then didnt work out.

1800 calories isnt huge or anything.

but enough after many days of sticking to it. i felt sick. nathan was even worse.

and i def did not work out.

i plan to work out tonite. but yesterday was a bad day. so i just need to forget it and move on.

hopefully i can do it.

10 Shreds Down

2011-08-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

another day down. another shred down.

my goal is to complete 27 this month. and i am now through more than a third of that!

super excited!

nathan was back in tonight, but after a few days off he could feel the difference.

i think that if i want to continue level two, ill need to do it at naptime, and then do level one with nathan at night, until he is ready to move up.

thats the update for today.

until tomorrow!

no witty remarks today

2011-08-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

i decided i was ready to move up to level 2 of the shred tonite while nathan is out to a business dinner.

i did not want to work out. it took me nearly two hours to talk myself into it. but i finally did, promising myself a more interesting workout if i moved up a level.

well, i was right.

i cant even make fun of anything jillian said or did because i was so busy focusing on getting through it.

i think thats a good thing.

my complaint about these videos is that (because of time constraint?) she takes no time to explain moves to you before doing them. so i felt like i was a bit behind on everything.

i am looking forward to the next couple of days and getting the workout down, so that way i can ~~make fun of her on my blog~~ really get a good workout in.

nathan is down 4 lbs ... so apparently he didnt need to work out today.

boys sure do have it easy in the weighloss department.

until tomorrow!

weighing in

2011-08-09T12:57:00.000-07:00

well. here it goes.

i lost 3lbs between last tuesday and today.
i think i could have lost more - but the big eating over the weekend did me in.

i will say this though, after 8 shred workouts, my body fat percentage is down .6%
if i kept that up, id be down to my goal body fat before november. that would be nice.

in addition i lost inches in the last week.
ill give you the break down in a few more weeks.

overall im happy. but i can be very impatient. so sometimes i get down on myself, because i would like to just wake up skinny. wouldnt that be awesome? just dream it, and then it happens.

o well. instead, ill just get back to shredding it tonight ;o)

tomorrow is weigh in ...

2011-08-08T19:43:00.000-07:00

i am really hoping for significant change tomorrow.

but ... the weekend was good (or should i say bad) to us. two opportunities to eat with the family. which equaled not much self control.

that being said...we have been keeping up on our shred.

i shredded on friday. i shredded on saturday.

no shred yesterday.

but i shredded twice today to make up for yesterday.

i think thats pretty good. so i think that puts me 8 shreds in. that means on thursday i should bump up to the next level. YIKES!

ill let you know how things are looking tomorrow as far as inches and weight.

till then!

we even work out on saturdays!

2011-08-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

another day, another dollar

or another work out

we did our shred. and we did with music only this time. it was nice to do it without having to listen to jilian.

obviously, while we like the workout, we are not huge fans of jillian.

nathan is sure she was a man at one point, and has just had a sex change.

i admit, she is pretty mannish.

after we did our shred, nathan had to update my tablet and some other stuff, so i did two different 10 minute toning videos - one for abs the other for arms.

he still wasnt done so i did a 30 minute yoga video.

til tomorrow!

the neck is not invited to this party

2011-08-05T13:00:00.000-07:00

jillian michaels says some of the most ridiculous things during the 22 minutes i have to listen to her.

none the less i still work out.

i have completed 4 days, and 5 shred work outs.

i want to tell you what ive lost in lbs .. but i will wait til tuesday so it will be a full week.

but let me share this ... i will be SUPER happy should my losses continue like this!

nathan is a rockstar

2011-08-04T20:05:00.000-07:00

after we out LBJ down tonight, i started to head downstairs to watch some tele. immediately nathan saiD, no no. go get changed, we are working out.

hes so amazing.

so we are three days in. already seeing weight loss and i can already tell my endurance is getting better throughout the tape. i think we will def be able to move up to level two by the end of the first 10 days.

nathan says he needs a recovery day already, so he will be taking off tomorow. but i am hoping to work out during the day without him.

until tomorrow!

day two

2011-08-03T20:52:00.000-07:00

we did it. two days of the shred. it wasnt easy, our bodies uurt today.

nathan complained of knee pains all day and said he wasnt going to workout.
tomsay i was upset would be an understatement. i went upstairs to change, put in the dvd and next thing i know, nathan says "make room!"
he was in!!!

i am so proud of us for doing it. it wasnt pretty. iwould never let anyone else see me in that state.

and now on to tomorrow!

before

2011-08-03T09:06:00.000-07:00

nathan and i have taken our measurements. we have weighed ourselves. and we have gotten our body fat percentages.

we have also taken "before" pictures.

i am not posting that nastiness. dont even think about it.

unless i end up looking like jill wagner from wipeout in the end (we love wipeout). in which case, i MIGHT post the before pictures.

but since that is not likely - i will just give you the before and after measurements in a month.

day one down

2011-08-02T21:03:00.000-07:00

hello friends. day one is down. and great news! nathan has joined me in the 30 day shred!

i did the workout this morning, then asked nathan if he wanted to do it too. and he said yes!!!

so we did it tonite. we also both ate well today.

i feel so good now. so different from this morning. its amazing what a little motivation can do.

so this month we are doing the 30 day shred ... annnnnnd a 31 dat spending fast.

we are awesome!

30 day countdown

2011-08-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

pretend i didnt go MIA for 3 months. please.

please also pretend i didnt gain 8 lbs.

here i am .... needing to lose weight in a bad way. i hate this struggle.

i hate everything about it. and not to get all emo on you, but i hate myself during this struggle. i hate that i cant be disciplined. i hate that i cant stop eating. i hate that i cant get to the gym. i hate seeing pictures of myself and thinking that im huge. and i hate that i cry about it, but then cant get it together to do something about it.

it is incredibly frustrating. depressing.

which only makes me want to eat more.

last week i was down 2lbs. and then the weekend came. and i was up 2 lbs again. its this never ending, incredibly draining struggle.

youd think i was talking about something more intense than weight. but for me, it is intense. after some serious trauma in my life, i turned to alcohol. when i gave up alcohol, i turned to food. food isnt like alcohol. i cant just stop buying it. or eating it. or hanging out with people who eat it.

i just have to keep pushing on.

so. nathan and i started a month long spending fast - we can only spend money on necessities. since we have 30 days left, i thought maybe i would try and work out for 30 days. since im having trouble getting out of the house and to the gym, id turn back to jillian michaels and/or the wii fit.

here it goes. on my way downstairs to get my work out on. see you tomorrow (hopefully).

ugh!

2011-05-01T12:43:00.000-07:00

im still here. and still weighing about the same. 162 this morning.

ugh.

i wish i was magic. so i could wave a wand and just weigh 140. id settle for 145.

anyway. maybe itll happen. we will see. but it sure would be nice to get something accomplished before the middle of june.

hopping on the wagon

2011-03-10T10:47:00.000-08:00

ive been doing fine. holding steady in the high 150s low 160s
just fluctuating based on what im doing. you know, like spending a week in cali and eating everything in sight, means im around 162. being at home means im 158. it just depends.
im 161 today. im wearing my size 10s. and feeling good. but i do want to lose another 20lbs before june.
in june we are heading to cali for rachel's graduation, and another trip to the d to the land.

so we are heading to the gym tonite. and if i check in tomorrow and say i didnt go. someone needs to come over and slap me. seriously.

im holding steady, which is great. but i think that if i start back up going to the gym 4-6 times a week, i can definitely get down into the 140s. maybe even the 130s!!!

what size do you think ill wear if im down into the 140s. like a size 6? maybe only an 8. either way, ill be stoked.

and i want to buy this dress
http://www.shabbyapple.com/p-507-ingrid.aspx

to wear to rachels graduation or whatevs!

the disneyland troop: Did you know ...

2011-02-18T17:17:00.000-08:00

the disneyland troop: Did you know ...: "A group of monkeys is called a troop? Now you do. "

just a quick one

2011-02-15T12:24:00.001-08:00

holding steady peeps.

maybe its because i dont go to the gym, eh?

however, nathan is going strong, and losing more poundage! hes awesome like that.
we have vowed to head back to the gym. so hopefully ill lose some more soon.

weigh in

2011-02-04T11:40:00.000-08:00

hey kids ... just checkin in ...

im at 159.4 this morning. i got up to 164 somewhere in there - you know PMSing and all. so im happy to be under 160 and would like to stay there, please!

i want to lose 20 more pounds. we are going to see my sister (you know the one who NEVER blogs on here) graduate in june. and we are probably going to disneyland. and so i want to look HOT ... also i just want to not sweat so much because im so fat. you know how that is. unless youre skinny. in which case you dont.

want to know what is awesome about losing weight? i can wear my wedding ring again. i cleaned it yesterday afternoon. and man! does that thing sparkle! im the luckiest gal in the world, i tell ya!

weigh in ..

2011-01-18T09:09:00.000-08:00

sorry this weekend was BUSY!

but i did want to give you the weigh in. on saturday i was 160.8.

this morning ... 160 even!

im pretty pumped. looking forward to seeing the 150s.

fyi ...

2011-01-12T13:01:00.000-08:00

im wearing my size 10 pants ... and doing so comfortably.
like they could e my every day jeans. couple more pounds and FOR SURE i could wear them every day.

i get happy when i can do this because i have chicken legs. so when i wore .. lets say .. a 14 or 16 pant, they might fit perfect around my waist, but my legs are swimming in them, and they dont hug me in the right places and i think i look worse.

so .. yay for size 10s.
and yay for losing weight!

ps ...161 this morning. just one ore pound for my weekly goal.

the weekend was good to us

2011-01-10T09:09:00.000-08:00

we both lost weight. nate hit a huge milestone.
and it makes me pumped for the week ahead.
id love to be at 160 on friday. so i think im going to have to work hard, and no cheating.
(thats funny ... i also cheat)

today im in at 162.4 lbs. and still hovering at 31% body fat.

so proud!

2011-01-09T20:44:00.000-08:00

i dont know if he'd want me to share .. but i am so proud of nathan.
he is officially under 200lbs!!
hes down over 15lbs. and i just couldnt be prouder.
its both our goals to get to what we weighed when we got married.
ive still got 18lbs to go.
and nathan has somewhere between 15 and 20. he didnt weigh himself back then. what men do?

but to get to this first milestone is impressive, and im super happy for him!

way to go nathan!

weigh in

2011-01-07T09:10:00.000-08:00

today i weighed in at 163.
not awesome, since i was already at 163.2 a few days ago.
but suffice it to say that nathan sabotaged me. and i gained weight.

but im back on track now, and feel good.
im down 3 lbs from last saturday - and i will take 3lbs a week, even if that means that during the week i go up.

my body fat percentage is still at 31.1%, but i like that too. i dont know how long it will take to see a 6% decrease, so im not going to worry about it - ill be curious to see what it is next friday - and then i can have an idea of an average week long loss in that area.

body fat

2011-01-04T12:49:00.000-08:00

http://forums.johnstonefitness.com/showthread.php?t=10333

this girl started at 26% body fat. she is 5'6. so about my size (not the same body type though). and looking at her, id love to be 26% body fat. im not sure how boobs play into the whole thing you know. she obviously is much smaller than me up top. when i lost my first 30lbs, i only lost 1/2 an inch in my bust. im still wearing a pretty big bra size. and i went to norstrom, and was fitted. so im pretty confident im wearing the right size.

i read online (you know, my go to for all questions) that with a scale like ours, that measures body fat, that it is taking into account the fat that is my breasts. if i were to have someone do a body fat test with callipers (those things that pinch you) then, obviously, its not taking into account your breasts. i would be extremely suspicious if i were you, if you went to the gym and a trainer want to pinch your ... well you get where im going with this ;o)

so i am curious - i wonder if the gym would measure my body fat for me? they'll probably want me to buy training sessions. blah.

well im not really concerned with the actual number - as i am with the change in the number. so ill keep using the scale. and hope to lose about 6% of body fat.

this website is pretty cool"
http://exrx.net/Calculators/WeightBodyComp.html

if you put in your current weight and body fat%, and tell it what you want your body fat% to be, itll tell you what you need to weigh. im sure its not perfect - obviously theres water weight and blah blah blah. but it gives me an idea of what to look out for.

checkin in

2011-01-04T11:57:00.000-08:00

well we did not make it to the gym last night. but i wasnt too sad. imagine that.
i did stick to my calorie intake, though. som im happy about that.

want to know hwat i want to do tonite - go work out and then sit in the steam room or in the hot tub.
im hoping nathan will join me.

i went on saturday night, just to relax (omgeee ... going to the gym to relax?) and was VERY happy that i put on my wedding ring before i went. not that i think any of the guys were going to hit on me, but it just made me feel more comfortable. especially when i walked into the hot tub/pool/steam area. 4 old guys in teh hot tub, 3 or 4 in steam or sauna, and then another 3 guys in the pool. i was the only woman ... surrounded by a lot of men. it was really odd. but i ended up being able to relax and it was FAB!

weight loss is going well ... 163.2
in addition my body fat % is going down - im down to 31.1%
according to 24 hr fitness, they have a grid up, and im in the acceptable body fat range. i need to get under 25% to be considered "fitness". and under 20% to be considered an athlete.

ill be happy around 24% really. i think. but we shall see!

just thinking

2011-01-02T23:27:00.000-08:00

i dont really have a lot to say .. but i was just thinking about how awesome it would be if i got really skinny.
like into the 120s ... dang that would be awesome.

know what else would be awesome? if you could see my collar bone.
it would probably be sexy.

thats it ... just thinking about how awesome it will be when i lose more weight.

anyway ... im off to bed for now. but ill keep you updated on the progress as per usual!

happy new year

2011-01-01T12:57:00.001-08:00

Yay for 2011! Nathan says this is the year of getting fit. And i think he is right.

We didnt gain any weight on our weeklong visit to az for christmas. In fact i lost a pound. I wasa able to work out a couple times while down there as well.

I think that all bodes well for our goals this year.

We have already hit up ther gym today. It was great. It was practically empty ... which i thought was strange. We also bought a new scale that reads body fat %, water %, and muscle %. Im a bit embarrassed by my numbers. but i should sincxe this is my record keeping area.

So ...
Weight: 166 (which is actually heavier than when i came home from az but we had a couple of crazy days where i ate my heart out)
Body fat: 31.5% (healthy is 20-25)
Water: 43%
Muscle: was in the 30s. I cant remember.

This month our goal is to lose between 8 and 10 pounds before heading back to az for a fun filled weekend on the 28th.

Until next time!

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weigh in

2010-12-17T08:01:00.000-08:00

well im not where i wanted to be ... but this week was a little more successful.
we have been hitting up the gym. and been really good about eating. we're all still a little sick - and so we are all feeling exhausted. its hard to work out when you want to fall asleep on the ab machine ...

im down to 165.

i really wanted to be about 160 when we left for az - but losing 5 lbs in 5-6 days is pretty slim the way things are going.

but im still going to push it this coming week - and see what i can do.

week 2 ... day 5

2010-12-10T11:47:00.000-08:00

woah! where have we been?
well we were sick. very sick.
we werent able to work out on tuesday or wednesday.
yesterday - we had to use the lion king tickets i got for my birthday. they were about to expire ... the show was great but we still werent feeling quite well. but, because i knew we were going to a show and dinner before, i headed to the gym yesterday morning. i nearly threw up. im not kidding.
but i weighed in this morning, and it wasnt pretty. im not even going to tell you.
so off to the gym i went this morning. and im planning on going with nathan tonite. so as long as i make it tomorrow - i will have gotten in 5 workouts. which is exponentially better than i was doing three weeks ago.

im back on the diet as of today .... and am hoping to see results by early next week.
im still sick. as is nathan and the kiddo. it really sucks.
but ill check in later to update our progress.

week 2 ... day 1

2010-12-06T21:37:00.001-08:00

So. Here we are blog. The first day of our second week in a three and half week push til christmas. ( at which point ill be stuffing my face)

Despite the sickness invading my house this weekend we made it to the gym tonite. Im happy we did. But im feeling blah. So i dont know how much better i actually am.

We worked hard today. And im looking foward to weighin on friday.

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day 5 ...

2010-12-04T09:50:00.001-08:00

Well last night we went to dinner with the parentals. We both opted for fajitas witout tortillas. But i ate some chips and salsa. No soda! I still ate too much. And the scale could tell this morning.

But props to us ... after dinner we went to the gym.
And we are on our way now today already.
Nathan says he might hit it up twice. I am very tired...so no promises like that from me.

Sunday is our day off...so see ya monday blog!

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weigh in

2010-12-03T12:48:00.000-08:00

168

1/2 pound from yesterday. probably from here i shouldnt be looking at my daily weight as a sign of success. id like to be 164 by next friday. thats seven days - and pushing it. but i think i can do it.

day 4

2010-12-02T19:48:00.000-08:00

alrite kids. thats 4 days at the gym and dieting. feeling good.

the last three days i was riding high. feeling good about getting back to the gym and what not. but today - today was a struggle. im telling you - struggling with depression (or funks or whatever) can be downright hard sometimes.

a 425 i was laying in bed. jackson was on the floor. we were watching arthur. i may or may not have been more into it than him. honestly. i was getting up the nerve to call nathan and tell him im sick and im not working out. but at 445 i dragged myself out of bed. and made dinner. a bag of steamed veggies and some hamburger patties. we are living it up here, people.

*ding* i get an im from nathan ... who is boning out of the gym, because he has to work late. yet another moment where i contemplated not going. jackson and i ate dinner. 615pm. i say to jackson - lets go-go to the gym.

and we leave.

my thought was - if i can push through today, then tomorrow will be easier.

i better be freakin right.

apparently, nathan got home at 620 and wanted to go to the gym. but we just missed each other.
he got into his pjs and waited patiently for my return.

hmph. im not sure who had a better night. but i made nathan put jackson down to bed - so i might win. ;o)

night blizzity-blog!

weigh in

2010-12-02T09:26:00.000-08:00

another pound down ...
168.5

9 lbs and ill be where i was in june.
nice!

day 3

2010-12-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

three straight days at the gym.
so far so good.
will check in tomorrow morning for a weigh in.
gnite blog land.

2010-12-01T15:44:00.000-08:00

so i ended up gaining a full 10 pounds (well .. i guess really its like 13 ... but i was fluctuating on those 3 pounds for weeks). ive been really struggling with a huge bout of depression - and with that came a lot of eating and ZERO exercise. as in - sometimes i laid on the couch all day - without moving.

well it came to a head on monday. and i broke down - and nathan said - lets go. to the gym. right now.
it was dark outside - and so i thought it was 8pm. itwas only 630. so off we went.
we've been two days now. cardio and strength training.
in addition -we are following a pretty strict diet for the next three weeks til we get to AZ for christmas.

just in the last two days ive dropped 4lbs. ive been drinking water like crazy (thanks kam!)
and just ignoring the cupboard. i figured the first few pounds would come off fast - as i put them on fast - and recently. so much of it, im sure, was the soda.

right now im pretty hungry. but ive been sewing all afternoon some christmas presents, and its keeping me busy.

anyway ... we are pretty determined (i only say this EVERY time)

so today i weighed in ... 169.5

would love to lose another 10 before christmas, and be what i weighed when we went to idaho.
anything on top of that would be gravy.

mmm... gravy

another go at it

2010-11-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

i dunno, kids.

i fell off the wagon big time. and gained back about 7 pounds.
it is sad. i feel yucky.

so its mine and nathans goal to lose 15 pounds by christmas.
that would make me pretty freakin happy. id be in mid 150s and look pretty good.
we made a goal to not eat out except: when my parents invite us out and when chris and kim come to town.
we made a goal to not drink any more soda
we made a goal to have a shake or cereal for breakfast and a shake for lunch. and not overeat at dinner.

lots of goals. i really hope we can do this. because im feeling really disappointed in myself.
im hoping the first 7 pounds will come off fast, since i put them on so fast....in like 2 weeks.
(i know ... sick)

anyway, hopefully ill be checking in at least weekly to give you an update on my progress.

weigh-in (sunday): 169

ill be back on friday morning to give you an update.

shopping!

2010-09-12T15:27:00.000-07:00

on tuesday, lbj and i are headed to boston to visit my family. i am SO excited.
however, most of my tshirts have holes in them. only so many shirts ... so much wear ... and my jeans just keep ripping little holes.
so i knew i need to go shopping. so off i went. nathan watched lbj all day, while my mum, sister and i had a girls day out. and do you know what i bought!?!

jeans. in a size 10!!!

i cant explain to you how good that feels. i am ignoring all stories on the internet machine that are talking about sizes and what they really are/mean/etc. i dont care. the number matters. and the number is a freakin 10!

plus ... ps ... macys was having a HUGE sale yesterday, so i got my favorite jeans - dkny - for 32$. 3 years ago (yes, thats the last time i bought jeans, and they were sizes 14 and 16), i paid 79$. so im pretty stoked.

i also bought my first ever skinny jeans. i have been anti skinny jeans forever now. by my sister and mum talked me into it. i also got some boots yesterday ... so i can wear those over the jeans if i want to some time.

i worked out thursday and friday. yesterday i didnt do my JM tape, however, i was at the mall from noon til 7pm ... so i had to have gotten a work out walking around. today ive worked out, and had my shake. and im wearing the size 10 jeans as we speak, just feeling them out, i guess. haha. im such a weirdo.
but i just feel so DANG good.

weight .. 163.5

update

2010-09-09T12:56:00.000-07:00

oh my little blog. where have i been?? why cant i stay motivated. i wish i knew.

so the hcg failed. after 5 days, i gave in. it was a horrible day, and i got nachos.

nathan and i opted to start going to the gym.
for two weeks we went 7 times (3-4 times a week). week three came - and we got caught up hanging out with friends. then we went down to arizona ... two weeks lapsed ... and no gym time.

UGH. its so frustrating. just as i think we are getting back on track, we fail. i fail. its just so maddening.

so we are back from az. and im leaving again next tuesday to see family in boston. but i can get in 5 days of exercise and good eating before i go.

so i just did my jillian michaels tape. and jeeze - its hard. even tho i weigh less than i did when i first started it months ago. and even tho i went to the gym and was getting back into working out. my muscles are tingling right now. its actually hard to type. so sad i know.

so ... what do i weigh you ask? 164.
at one point i got down to 159. but it was only for a day. i feel like im kinda stuck here in the low 160s. ive got to break out.

id like to break back into the 150s by my birthday (oct. 13). and then mid 140s by christmas. thats just a pound a week, really. even if i could do .. 1.5 lbs a week on average .. that would put me at 141 or so by christmas.

i feel like im always saying this ... you know, redoing my goals and hoping and blah blah blah. but at least im trying i guess. and im not really gaining. so just got to keep it up.

hopefully i can get back to working out, and blogging. and then be more accountable.

hoping for the best!

days 2, 3 & 4

2010-08-01T21:34:00.000-07:00

friday ... i had an apple. then nathan and i went to our dinner party. where i think we ate well. but who knows?

saturday was good. except we decided we cannot go to costco on saturday, while hungry. its just SO tempting. luckily only three more saturdays like this.

we had crab for lunch, and it was fab.

nathans first few days have been hard for him. hes been very fatigued, and very hungry. i suppose all my crazy yoyo dieting from the past got me ready for this. ... i suppose that doesnt sound very good does it ...

today was horrible for me. i woke up hungry, and was therefore pretty pissy. we had some chicken cutlets for lunch, that are actually very tasty. for dinner we had some steak.

my weight this morning was 163. so, only an additional pound in two days. but im hoping that was due to us cheating a bit on friday night.

im looking forward to weighing in tomorrow and will give you an update then.

day 2

2010-07-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

today we've been invited to a special dinner party.

so im going to try and save ALL my calories for 630 pm.

we will see how that goes.

in other news ...

i am 164.

dang.

im good.

2010-07-29T09:27:00.000-07:00

mia ... yet again.

but im back on it people. i lost 3 lbs when i was doing the 10lb challenge. and then gained it all back and then some.

i knew i was gaining ... but i didnt care.

well i did. but not enough to stop eating everything in sight.

however, nathan and i ordered hcg drops from hcgboutique.com

i actually won a whole starter kit from her on http://mormoninmanhattan.blogspot.com/

i gave the starter kit to my sister - who, while shes not blogging about it, is doing great, and has lost some serious lbs.

nathan heard about the diet (apparently he wasnt listening when i told him about it) and wanted to try it. so we are doing it together.

we loaded the last three days. and today is the first day of the VLCD.

i am 167.

im hoping to lost 10% ... so between 16 and 17lbs.

ok ... im actually hoping to lose more like 20 to 25. but ill be happy if i lose 17.

ill be checking in more frequently people.

get ready for it.

frustrating

2010-06-24T15:07:00.000-07:00

today is a poopy day. first of all - i should totally be cleaning. but im not.

im writing in my blog. (obviously)

second. all i want to do is eat. so i have been. im an emotional eater. at least i know it. first step and all that, right?

anyway while out with my family last night, we hung out with my best friend from high school. while i was being complimented for my weight loss thus far my dad decided to throw this little gem in there:

"but, you know, i have this picture of the two of you and so and so from high school ... and you all look SOOOO skinny"

the tone of his voice said to me: if only you could be that person, nicole, instead of who you are now.

i know i didnt make it up - bc the friend i was with said to him - "that was a jab, tim!"

i dunno. i have lots and lots of crazy pent up (and sometimes not so pent up) feelings towards and regarding my father, that when he makes stupid comments like this it makes me feel like he wants me to be that person again (because who i am now, isnt good enough) so i can become all that he envisioned i would become - versus who i actually am.

holy smokes ... therapy anyone?

nah. im just going to go have some more m&ms. thanks.

challenge two

2010-06-22T14:26:00.000-07:00

so im back from yellowstone. and am really happy with the progress i made before we went.

i tried to keep my eating in check for the first few days we were on vacation ... i didnt want to look bloated for familiy pictures ... obviously

but then i started chowing down like it was my job

we all talked about how much we were eating ... and how most of us could stand a lose a few more lbs

so a challenge was issued ... 10 pounds in three weeks

i thought that for sure i had gained at least 3lbs while on vacation (but probably more like 6)

so imagine my surprise when i weighed myself on friday morning still at 160.5

saaaaaay what?!?! i didnt gain a single pound while on vacation? thats freakin incredible.

so .. i need to hit 150.5 by july 10th people.

that seems a lil daunting. but its a goal. and im going to reach for it.

end of my first challenge

2010-06-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

tomorrow we leave for idaho. it was my goal to lose 35 pounds before our trip.

unfortunately i did not make that goal.

but i am not as upset as i thought i might be.

i am 161 lbs today. which is 25 lbs down. (so - yes - i am off by 10lbs - sue me)

but look at this:

mid-march my bust was: 42in

now my bust is: 41in (so basically my boobs barely shrank)

mid march chest: 35.5 in

mid june chest: 33 3/4 in

mid march waist: 41in

mid june waist: 34.5 in

HOLY SMOKES!!! 6.5 inches. thats freakin incredible. now you know where i was holding all my weight.

mid march hips: 42 in

mid june hips: 40.5 in

mid march thighs: 23 3/4 in

mid june thighs: 21 3/4 in

mid march knee: 17 in

mid june knee: 16in

mid march calf: 14 1/4 in

mid june calf: 13 3/4 in

Dang Gina!!! thats all i have to say. lots of inches lost.

and i should feel pretty freakin good about it.

now for a 10 day vacation, and then ill be back with a new challenge to myself.

thanks for all the support the last 5 months. i really appreciate it.

if only i didn have boobs

2010-05-26T14:30:00.001-07:00

i've hit 162.

if i didnt have boobs, i'd be in the healthy weight range (BMI) ...

but alas ... ive got huge knockers.

im just saying ...

weighing in ... again.

2010-05-21T09:48:00.000-07:00

163.5

ARGH

just make me skinny already.

honestly. just get me into the 150s.
that would be a freakin accomplishment.

weighing in

2010-04-30T14:14:00.001-07:00

164.5

slow but steady.

over 20 lbs

2010-04-26T12:13:00.000-07:00

that's what i've lost.

i am now down to 165.5. so 20.5lbs down. only 29.5 more to go :o)

i went for a 3.5 mile hike this morning with lbj. that was nice.
also - i started alli last week. as soon as got home from chicago (where i gained 2 lbs) i started up. and its been good. no "oops" moments for me. :o)

im happy im under the 20lbs mark. but i still need to lose quite a bit more before we go to idaho. we will see if it is doable.

aye aye aye

2010-04-12T12:47:00.000-07:00

i know! i know!

i havent been posting. im so lame. lately things have been kinda craz-ay around here.

lbj had the flu. nate had the flu. and and i had the flu. actually i gave it to everyone. including my parents. it was awesome.

other things have been going on. like me not knowing what to do to feel more fulfilled. like as a person.
i love lbj and i love being his mum. and i love it when he wants to cuddle with me. which has been going on for a week now. since hes been sick, we just lay on the couch together and watch pbs all morning til nap time. and i LOVE it.

but that doesnt do much for my own personal selfworth. i mean, i know that taking care of lbj is important. obviously its the most important.

but who am i anymore? i dont know. so im working on that.

in the mean time im still trying to eat well and work out.

lbj and i did some hiking last week. it was so nice out. tomorrow we should be able to get back out there, since it will be nice again. we found a trail that leads to a creek, and its not on the 13 mile loop, so i dont have to pay the 5$ entry fee. pretty stoked about it actually. im hoping that in a few weeks that i wont be so out of breath doing the 3 mile trek. we did pretty good the first time, but i want it to get better and faster. so we will see.

as far as my weight -

im down to 167. one more pound, and ill be down 20lbs since thanksgiving.

i dont feel like i look any different in the mirror. which is really disappointing. but i know i must be thinner because my jeans are all falling off and my pj pants too. but i just feel like i still look like a fat slob in the mirror. woow. hows that for honesty?

when i came home from college i was 168. yup. no freshman 15 for me. it was the freshman 30. i mean i did come home january of 2003. so i mean i was gone for a full year and half. haha that makes me feel better, right? no.

anyway, i started going to a nutritionist back then, and got b6 and b12 shots. lost 30 lbs in 3 months. it was really great. i dont think that i can afford that now. but i am thinking about trying alli when i get home from my vacation to chicago this weekend.

technically i have 8.5 weeks to lose another 17lbs before idaho. that was my goal. i think i can still do it. but as per usual. it will be hard. but, i would be so happy showing up at 150 pounds. i mean, to be down 36 lbs would be freaking awesome. plus - then i would only have another 12 lbs to go to my ultimate goal, and i think that my goal will be to do that before out september trip to washington dc.

its not that im off track necessarily. its just that i dont have my whole heart and soul in this. so im not losing like i should, i feel like.

for now im going to be happy that i have really lost a lot. its actually pretty good. and i should be happy about it.

so .. happy i am. happy i will be.

weigh in week 13

2010-03-19T08:15:00.000-07:00

ive been MIA. lo siento.

went down to az to spend a week with the fam. kevin and samm got married. it was fab.

but i gained some weight.

but no worries.

today i weighed in ... drumroll please .....

169.5

im down into the 160s. i havent seen these numbers in a LONG time. i cannot tell you how good it feels.
i have been VERY diligent this week about having a shake for breakfast and one for lunch. and then a sensible dinner.
two nights we had shakes for dinner, because we each ate lunch out.

say what ... we??? ... yes, even nathan is shaking it up. and im so proud of him. the first day was so hard. he was so hungry at night. but we got through it. with a 60 calorie fudgsicle. :O)

we are going to try to go to the gym this week - one of us goes, the other watches the baby. we will see how that goes. i have issues going places alone.

none the less. here i am. in the 160s. its a good day. :o)

weigh in week 11

2010-03-05T10:10:00.000-08:00

this is ridiculous.

unless its real. in which case. this is awsome.

weighed in at:

171.5

i think my scale is freakin out. im going to amazon.com right now.
i better not get a new scale that tells me that im 190lbs. ill have a fit.

midweek update

2010-03-04T12:51:00.000-08:00

i know its not weigh in day ... but i weighed myself and im 173. it is slow going these days. that first 10 lbs from 186 to 176 was good. these last three pounds have been hard to drop and hard to keep off. im really hoping tomorrow i can say that im 172.5. that would be freakin awesome.

however, i just want to reiterate what i said last night - which is im feeling great. i know im losing weight and inches because my clothes are feeling much looser. plus my pants arent digging into my stomach when i sit down at the table either ( i know - i used to be so fat. blah).

i did not work out this morning, bc i came into work early. my plan is to leave early so i can do it tonite before dinner. then i wont be so hungry either. i think. thats how it used to be for me, when i used to go to the gym.

also - i won a giveaway of hcg drops. so im going to start that next week probably. that should speed things up a bit. right?

meh. we will see. id really like to get into the 150s. id be so freakin stoked. i have exactly 14 weeks before i get to idaho. if i only lost a pound a week id be to 159 lbs. if i could do 2 lbs a week id be 145. that would be awesome. ive really got to start working harder. maybe working out twice a day or something. anything. i just want it so bad!!

quick update

2010-03-03T21:08:00.000-08:00

hey all ... just so you know ive been working out.

friday i did my JM tape. saturday i worked out with kelly. we walked up and down the bleachers at the high school - and let me tell you that my calves were killin me the next day. we did weights and walked the track. a good 30-45 min work out. sunday we drove home to vegas - so i didnt work out.

monday i was exhausted and spent the day in the office. so i didnt work out again.

but yesterday and today i got up early and did my JM tape. i think im going to move up to level two by the end of this week.

my scale is being wacky. i think im down to 173.5 .... but im not so sure. its kind of frustrating actually. ive got to get a new scale.

anyway im exhausted. working all day in the office is really tiring me out. im so glad that i dont work full time. thank goodness i have a wonderful husband who makes it possible for me to stay home with the baby.

anyway ... im going to keep working out. and even though im not seeing the pounds lost that i want to, im feeling great. my clothes are all fitting much looser, which is fab!

gotta keep on keepin on

day 5 - getting easier

2010-02-25T12:39:00.000-08:00

just fyi ... im on "vacation" ... im down in AZ visiting nathans family. however, i got up this morning and while my wonderful lovely mother in law watched jackson and took him for a walk - i put on my 30 day shred video in and worked my lil butt off.

my endurance is definitely getting better. and i can kick myself "in the ass, quite literally" as jillian says. its been pretty good. and im happy that 5 days in a row ive really pushed myself to get this done.

i am hoping that i can keep up the motivation and finish the 30 days ... in 30 days. and im hoping that i will see a 10 lb weight loss. i probably wont be weighing in tomorrow, since im not at home. plus .. i need to get a new scale.

anyway ... just got to keep on keepin on.

day 4 - frustration

2010-02-24T08:32:00.000-08:00

so got up early this morning to do my work out since ill be on a plane with the little one this afternoon. and am probably not going to want to work out once i get to the big AZ.

happy i made the time for the work out.

disappointed that my scale says i gained a pound. i find it really hard to believe considering the intensity of this workout, and that ive been watching what i eat for the most part. plus ive gained a pound in the last 4 days of working out. that makes no sense. i go a whole week without watching portions and no workouts and i stay stagnant - and now this?

my scale also told me i weighed 13.5 lbs the other day. nope, thats not a typo. i think im going to get a new scale. bc maybe this one is on the fritz.

thats what i want to believe anyway.

doin it together

2010-02-23T10:31:00.000-08:00

i totally did not know my friend from high school, kam, had a blog. and a weightloss one at that!

she is such an inspiration. she's on such a freakin' roll with her weightloss. i want to be just like her when i grow up :o)

kam is going to do the 30 day shred with me. so ive but her blog in the sidebar and we are going to check up on each other.

check her out! http://blackfemmefatale.com/

day 3

2010-02-23T10:16:00.000-08:00

holy smokes. day three of the 30 day shred. and my arms are killing me. i can already tell my endurance is getting better though. the first day i was unable to even finish the 2 minute cardio in the second circuit. so sad i know.

yesterday and today i never stopped .... except push ups. i suck at those. cant i do something else for those 30 seconds?

jillian michaels scares me. just saying.

getting back on track

2010-02-22T12:46:00.000-08:00

kids. ive really fallen of the bandwagon.

its hard to tell because i havent gained any weight. but the problem is ive only really lost 2 lbs in the last month. thats really sad.

ive been drinking coke. and going out to eat and not watching my portions. no shakes. just food food and more food. and very very little working out.

so yesterday, i decided to rededicate myself to this weightloss stuff.

friday i purchases jillian michaels 30 day shred video. its a 20 minute workout that uses some weights. i started yesterday and im telling you - it was hard! and i did level one. i did it again this morning. and im going to really try and work out every day. the video says you can lose about 20 lbs in 30 days. wouldnt that be fantastic? even if i lost 10 lbs id be pretty stoked.
march 23rd will be 30 days. so im going to aim for 10 pounds by then. ill keep weighing in on fridays.

from there ill still have 11 weeks to lose an additional 15 to 20 lbs. i think this is still doable. im really going to focus on the next 30 days. and the 10 lbs im going to lose.

weigh in: week 9

2010-02-19T14:42:00.000-08:00

174

one pound loss.

at least its something.

i read that having an iud put in has caused many women weight gain. i am wondering if that could be hindering my weight loss.

i mean - it couldnt be that i didnt work out this week.

ok if i can get back to losing 2lbs a week ... ill be at 144 by the time we go to idaho. thats about what i weighed when we got married. still not my ultimate goal. but that would be nice.

i have got to make it happen people.

but for now, i will be happy with my one measly pound. :o)

weigh in ... week something (and a little TMI)

2010-02-12T11:20:00.000-08:00

i am feeling down and out today people. it actually started yesterday.

it has nothing to do with my weight.

which is steady at 175 or 175.5 depending on.... who knows what.

i am hoping my lack of weight loss this week was because of ... (enter TMI) ... bloating and other things of the feminine persuasion.

anyway .... im just feeling yucky. and i just want to eat. in fact, what i want to do is never care about my weight again and just be fat and happy. and probably never leave my house again.

dramatic, much?

i dont even care. 'cause its really how i feel. so there.

this weeks goal

2010-02-09T12:36:00.001-08:00

this week my goal is to get to 173. just two pounds shy of where i was last friday. it would also put me 10pounds down since january. nice!

but, sunday was the superbowl. and i may or maynot have overindulged. the weekend is hard. no matter what. so i think ill have a lil more that 2 pounds to lose (more like 2.5-3). but i think can do it.

just gotta keep up the exercise and good eating.

check in with ya later.

weigh in week 7

2010-02-05T15:25:00.001-08:00

i did it kids.

175

down three pounds this week.

yet another reminder that the hard work pays off.

gotta keep it up!

Valentines Tip For the Fat Girls!

2010-02-04T15:38:00.000-08:00

I am off to the gym in 30 minutes. I know I know everyone that follows our blog are clearing checking in with Nicole and her status and thats because I am awful at this. But Great News since my 152 weigh in I have lost a total of 9lbs I weigh 143 right now and pretty happy. I still have a goal and its to lose a lot more. I have a thinner face and I am starting to get some lines on my abs. WOO Hoo. I know I can't wait for Summer and bathing suits, I dont think I have ever said that.. Also for anyone who reads this I wanted to let them in on something, in the past 8 months or so I have started to see cellulite(gross I know) but I wanted to let you know running is a great solution to getting this to go away. Also there is a cream I use in the day and night called Fat Girl Slim that you can buy at Sephora. Each day I rub it in my legs for a good 30 to 60 seconds. Rubbing Cellulite is good for you, because you're breaking up the fat that has been gathering in those areas. So maybe for Valentines you can convince your lover to rub your body with some lotion, it wont just feel good, it will help you out, and what guy doesn't want to do that. haha! I am trying to be like cosmo and give love tips for vday weekend! Good luck to anyone trying to lose it!

thursday - feelin good

2010-02-04T13:12:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is weigh in. and im SO excited. i think i might make my goal of 175. ive been really good. ive been exercising and keeping my calorie intake down.

it feels like that first week again, where i was really motivated and feeling good. SO HAPPY!

so many people i know have made 2010 the year to lose it. im getting recipe ideas via facebook. so many friends are posting their weight loss as status updates. people just seem really motivated. and are using social media to keep it up. LOVE IT!

im feeling good today. and just wanted to give you a heads up to check in tomorrow for the weekly weigh in!

tuesday

2010-02-02T14:14:00.000-08:00

45 minute of exercise. check.
had some health choice tomato soup and tuna for lunch. literally tuna from the can with balsamic vinegar and not even a tablespoon of mustard. no mayo. no bread. and you know what? it was tasty. half a cup of that was about 70 calories. the soup was abou 180.

for dinner tonite ... ugh i dont know. im feeling really unmotivated to cook. and i still need to go to the grocery store.

but ill figure it out.

until next time!

feb

2010-02-01T19:56:00.000-08:00

a new month. im hoping for 8 lbs this month. get me back on track.

i forgot to give you my weigh in last week.

i was 178.

i got to 177 midweek - but by friday was back up. today i was 177.5. so im just bouncing around. id really like to hit 175 by friday - id break through my best weigh in a couple weeks ago. then i think id feel good.

it would be really sad to say i plateaued after only losing 7 pounds.

just a quick rachel update - she told me she is down 6 pounds. so shes catching up to me. dang!

i started my own fatbet ... i asked my family who is going to idaho if they want to join. nathan said no. hes such a bum sometimes. kelly is in as soon as she has her baby. shes gonna lose 20 lbs in a week and be ahead of us all :o)

i exercised for an hour today. and ate well. it was a good day. hopefully it will be a good month.

wednesday

2010-01-27T12:47:00.000-08:00

for those of you who dont work or go to school ... you might get me here. one day its monday morning, and youre about to set course for a whole new high intensity work out and nutrition regime. then all of a sudden ... its wednesday afternoon.

and while i have no been bad, per se, i have not been preforming at optimal levels either.

i worked out today. 30 minutes of dancin hip hop and 20 minutes of yoga. burning maybe 300 calories or so. shake for breakfast, and ill probably have one for lunch. who knows.

the last two days, ate really well. but didnt exercise a minute (unless you count shaking my booty while cleaning house).

life goes on. and im committed.

nathan, however, is not. evidenced by his second dinner at taco bell last night

Losing it!

2010-01-25T19:38:00.000-08:00

I haven't been as good as Nicole on blogging.. But I have been very good about my eating habits and exercising. I only eat healthy choice and salad for dinner and lunch and for breakfast a bowl of cereal. I go to my trainer twice a week and I am doing great with him I already feel more flat in the belly and toned in other places! I promise I will write more when I get a moment.

i did it. 3 lbs.

2010-01-25T12:37:00.000-08:00

well. i did GAIN about 3 lbs while in az. (2.5)

it was not easy to stick to my calorie count when everyone around me was eating fast food and a lot of it.

nathan told me the last night we were there, that he is really ready to lose weight. ive heard it before. but he seems ready now. i dont know.

i think he also realizes how important it is to me. i was depressed near the end of the week when i wasnt eating right and exercising. i am a happier person when i am sticking to goals and accomplishing things.

so i am back on track now. i have another month before i go back to arizona. so if i can lose between eight and ten pounds before then i will be happy. in addition, i wont be going down for a whole week. just a long weekend.

the first few days i was in arizona i was fine. telling everyone "no" when they asked if i wanted more, or if i wanted cake. or if i wanted tasty tasty mexican food at 10 pm. but by the 4th day, i was sick of saying no. and i didnt give in once. i gave in the rest of the week.

so. im back on. and youll see me on friday morning for sure with a weigh in. wish me luck!

update

2010-01-20T12:48:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a really good day. i stuck to my calorie count. we went out to lunch and i had a salad that was less than 600 calories. it was HUGE. and i ate it all. for dinner i made dinner for the family and let them try my oregano chicken. so i was at 350 calories for that. pretty good while on vacation.

two days ago was not the same story. do the words "late night filibertos run" mean anything to you. well what they mean to me is some TASTY steak nachos. i had done a decent job during the day. not perfect but i would have been ok if not for the nachos.

o well. life goes on. tonite is sushi with the sisters. so hopefully i can watch my portions. so far today ive had 425 calories. so i can eat 550 for dinner. i have no idea how much sushi it is. so im just going to try and not stuff my face excessively.

thats it for now.

sunday sunday

2010-01-17T21:21:00.000-08:00

my first day on "vacation" and im pretty impressed with my determination.

drove to az and stopped at arbys. i didnt get a coke. and no fries. just a sandwich. turkey.

then got to the big az and had spaghetti dinner. only had 1 cup of noodles a little sauce and one meatball. cake was served for birthdays. and i refrained.

and i didnt have any garlic bread. im amazing!!!

hope to keep it up.

3 lbs.
i can do it.
3 lbs.
i can do it.

goal for next week

2010-01-15T14:11:00.000-08:00

alright. its a new week. i kind of like breaking things down like this. its really nice. makes me feel renewed.

i woud really like to lose 3 pounds this coming week. if i did, i would be down a full 10 pounds from the beginning (which would technically be 5 weeks, but since i was the same weight til the beginning of the new year, its really like 3 weeks) (do you like how just pretended those first few weeks didnt even exist)

can you imagine the nonsense of losing 10 pounds. i mean, i guess thats not that big of a deal. but to me, its huge. it would also put me smaller than i have been in 2 years or so. say what?!? i know. im a fatty.

i really think i can do it. but its going to be really really hard, since we will be out of town visiting family. im just going to have to set aside some time everyday to get out and work out. there is no way im doing my dance dvds in front of nathans family. unless they are really desperate for some comedic entertainment.

im also going to have to really watch my calories. especially when we go out. i know this sounds lame, but ill probably get online before we go out anywhere and check calories for some things -so i know what to order before hand. until i can adequately tell what im eating, portion wise and calories wise - its what im going to have to do.

losing weight takes dedication. but im ready. and willing.
3 lbs.
i can do it.
3lbs.
i can do it.
(just a little personal motivation)

(ps i wont be posting my weigh in til next saturday or sunday, since we will be out of town. and i trust only my scale.)

weigh in: week 4

2010-01-15T10:00:00.001-08:00

ladies and gentlemen ....

my new weight is:

176 lbs

definitely not as much as i wanted. but i was not nearly as good this week as last week. so its my own fault.

but i am down two and half pounds. which is on target. so thats all that really matters.

wednesday

2010-01-14T08:13:00.000-08:00

worked out for almost a full hour yesterday. felt really good about it.
totally stuck to my calorie intake.

it was a good freakin day.

im noticing that this is the first time ive written that sentence this week. and i also noticed its the first time ive seen any change in the scale all week.

correlation?

of course! but im glad i had the reminder. because i was forgetting.

last night i made a fab meal. and its only 350 calories. check it out:

I get 4 oz of asparagus - which is between 5 and 8 stalks depending on the thickness. 6 oz of small potatoes. which can be between 4 and 6 potatoes depending on size. and a skinless boneless breast of chicken wtith oregano and capers in a little sauce.

last night i made this for nathan and myself and our friends. i didnt measure out my food, because thats just weird in front of people. the asparagus was skinny, and i weighed when prepping dinner, so i figured on 8 stalks. it was probably a little over. but i know i didnt have a full 6 oz of potatoes. give a lil, take a lil.

since we had friends over, i made dessert which was just some strawberries and blackberries. i had one serving of coolwhip. i felt like i was totally splurging.

i had a shake for breakfast. and that was it all day.

so even if i had 700 calories at dinner which im pretty sure i didnt, i was still under calorie count. plus my 1 hr workout.

can i do it again today? i hope so. i only have two days before we leave for az, and id like to lose a little more weight before we go.

bad news bad

2010-01-12T22:13:00.000-08:00

i worked out for 30 minutes (hip hop dance, what what) and did ab workout.
only had about 200 calories before dinner.

but then baby had a meltdown. i had a meltdown. i had a spreadsheet to finish work. a baby to feed. dinner to make. house to clean (last minute overnight guests were on their way). and so something had to give.

which meant nathan picked up burger king. and i had a coke. which i havent had in about two weeks.

argh!!

double time workout tomorrow.

getting back in shape!!

2010-01-11T21:04:00.000-08:00

went to the gym.. I had training, it felt good then I ate a lean cusine... I feel good today about my body but give me 10 weeks and I am going to look DANG good. I read my sisters losing it and umm she is dropping the lbs sooo I guess I need to get to work. well I am not going to snack in bed tonight even though I am feeling a little sad and lonely I am just going to fall asleep and eat healthy tomorrow. good night blog

ive been held hostage!

2010-01-11T10:22:00.000-08:00

someone came into my house last night (after being away for a very long time) with chinese in his hands. and forced me to eat it.

ALL.

i mean - three eggrolls. some house special chicken. pork fried rice. and a whole lotta won ton soup.

then this "someone" put all the leftovers in the fridge and went off to work this morning. and i feel like hes saying "eat all the food while im gone .... or else!!!"

or else what??? i almost cant help myself.

but i must! i did so well while this "someone" was away, and i must keep it up.

so i forced myself to do 20 minutes of hip hop dance exercise. and learned im not as coordinated as i thought. (ok i never thought i was particularly coordinated ... but still ... this bad?).

plus im thinking about doing another 10 minutes after i finish this blog.

yes i will. then a shake. then on with my day.

my mantra today: ignore the chinese food. drink more water.

saturday ... the weekend arrives

2010-01-09T16:28:00.000-08:00

i just wanted to write how im feeling today. im feeling so great. and motivated.

i havent felt this motivated in a long time. probably why im still fat ;O)

i really hope that i can keep up this feeling.

its really amazing what losing about 5 pounds can do to your confidence. plus ... my jeans are already fitting better. im really looking forward to getting into some more clothes. and eventually shopping for a whole new wardrobe. (im sure ill have to talk nathan into that)

also - an old friend emailed me, and she and a group of her friends get together and weigh in every other week, and hang out ... and she invited me. i think its a good idea. just another group of people to keep me motivated and going.

plus, it would be nice to get out of the house on occasion, and hang out with some girls.

i updated my fatbet yesterday after i weighed in.

then last night we went to the buffet. my grandma LOVES the buffet. i dont like it so much. but i did notice i ate less than usual. plus i ate better choices - soup instead of fried chicken, things like that. plus i ordered water instead of coke. huge pluses for me.

im really looking forward to next fridays weigh in. im really hoping to lose another 4 pounds this week. i will feel really good about going down to az if i can do that.

i know that i always wont be able to lose so many pounds in a week. but its such a good way to start things off. im taking advantage of the little push ive got here :o)

weigh in: week 3

2010-01-08T07:52:00.000-08:00

alright. here she is .. my new weight.

178.5

i lost four and half pounds. in a week. thats pretty good. i hope i can keep this up.

today i plan to work out, since i didnt the last two days.

im going to update my fatbet. and get on a conference call.

see ya on the flip side!

not working out :o(

2010-01-07T21:31:00.000-08:00

stuck to my calorie intake today.
but didnt do any exercise.

tomorrow i MUST exercise, as ill be going out for dinner with the family. and i dont want to be thinking ALL about calories when i order.

tomorrow morning ill weigh in. im hoping for 5 pounds. that seems like a lot. since i was just going for a 2 pound loss a week thing. but the honest truth is that i weight myself each morning. so i already know that i surpassed the 2 lb mark.

if i can do the same next week - then ill be down about 10 lbs before heading to az to see nathans family for a week.

yet another time that is difficult to stick to a diet and exercise regime. however. i have faith that i can do it. i think that if i just keep telling myself i can, over the next week, then ill really believe it. and it will be easier to do. in addition after two weeks of sticking to 1000 calories a day, im hoping my tummy will shrink and i wont be as hungry either. one can hope.

anyway. almost a whole week in the bag. and im pretty happy. since im going to go out tomorrow night, im hoping that saturday and sunday i can stick to the 1000 calorie limit. it was really my plan to watch it so much on the weekend, because it seems a little more difficult. but i think that if i can, the reward will be that much greater.

wednesday

2010-01-06T21:17:00.000-08:00

today was not so hot. i was feeling pretty yucky all day. and when i feel like that i just want to EAT.

EVERYTHING.

it was so hard ... but ill have you know i did really well. probably because i got into bed at 830 pm (im in bed writing this post). and i took a nap at the same time lbj went down.

i skipped my shakes today. for breakfast i had half a bagel. instead of cream cheese, i had peanut butter. and i actually measured out a 1/2 tablespoon to put on it.

i ate a pear. then i napped. and for dinner i grabbed the WHOLE HAM i have in the fridge. maybe you are wondering why i have a whole ham. in my fridge. the one that houses food for only two people. my mum made me take it home with me. because she didnt want it in her fridge.
anyway, i cut off an ounce of meat. yup. i measured it. and then went to the internet to find out how many calories it was. and was surpised it was only about 40 or 50. so i ended up eating a bunch more. like 7 more oz. haha.

anyway. i read once that when you are hungry in between meals, you should drink water. because maybe youre really just thirsty. ive been trying to do that the last few days. and it has worked. probably because i am thirsty. because i never drink any water. i have to figure out a better way to make myself drink more.

as far as working out - that did not happen today. but im not gonna beat myself up about it.since i stuck to my calorie intake.

ok ... time to sleep. tomorrow is another day

another good day

2010-01-05T22:13:00.000-08:00

alright peeps. today i had one shake around 11am. then i was out and about all afternoon, so no time to eat or have a shake. im not advocating not eating. im just saying, its what i did.

for dinner i had a frozen pizza. 1 serving was 350 calories. dang! now that im looking at this stuff i eat, im realizing why i weigh so much. its not that 350 calories is bad. is that if i ate 3 slices - which i normally would do - id hit 1050 calories. just for dinner!

so i ate two pieces. 700 calories. it was hard not to go back for the third piece. but even with two pieces, and my shake, im under 1000 calories today.

i worked out for only a half hour today. about 100 calories worth.

i kept my food journal. which i suppose im doing here as well. but meh. no worries.

i also posted the link to this blog on FB. so people can seriously see what the heck im doing. and what i weigh. ACK.

i also joined a fatbet.com, 50$ - and i pledged to lose 18 lbs before april 2nd. thats a little under what i really want to lose. but even so, id be really happy with that. it would put me at 165. which i havent seen in a while. it would also open up my church wardrobe considerably. (i have a lot of skirts in that "size").
i really dont want to sent 50$ out to my old friend liam. so i really want to win. but i dont know what other characters are going to be participating. and maybe they are way better than me.

nah.

im going to win. i can feel it.

two days in a row, ive been really disciplined. i know thats not huge. but im going to celebrate each and every success.

Monday ... was a good day

2010-01-05T11:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday i worked out a total of about an hour and 15 minutes. it was through out the day, since lbj doesnt let me have LOTS of time to my self. none the less i burned about 360 calories.
i kept a food diary. and ate about 1150 calories yesterday. so more than the 966 im supposed to stick to. however, i still burned more calories than i ate yesterday. (1830+360=2190. minus calorie restriction of 959=1231 calories that i was "allowed" to eat)

it was pretty crazy at dinner time to see what i would normally eat, and what i forced myself to eat instead.
we had hot dogs and mac and cheese last night. i know - not particularly healthy - but we live on a really tight budget, and hot dogs are cheap. after seeing that the hotdogs were 170 calories each, and the buns were an additional 110, i opted to have two hot dogs without buns. the kraft mac and cheese is 260 calories for one cup. i wasnt sure if that was going to be enough (i know how sad). i got out a measuring cup and nathan said "youre really going to measure it out?" and i said, yup. im serious.

so my dinner was 600 calories. i had two 250 calorie shakes. bringing me to 1100 calories. around 10pm i was craving sweets. so i went to the fridge, and i got out the most delicious candy bar in the world. a crunchie bar. and i cut it into 4 pieces. 46 calories each. and only ate one piece and headed out of the kitchen.

im not going to lie. im pretty freakin impressed with my dedication yesterday. i really hope i can keep it up today and going forward. i started following a bunch of other peoples weigh loss/fitness blogs in hopes that i can read them and be and stay motivated as well.

fitday.com

2010-01-04T13:43:00.000-08:00

i found a website where i can journal my food intake.
in addition, i can keep a weight journal online as well.
its called fitday.com
if i like it and keep up with it, i will probably buy the 20$ pc version, so i dont have to deal with all the online ads.

but the best thing about the website, is that it tells me how many calories i should consume in order to lose my goal weightloss by my deadline of june 10th.

according to the website, i can eat 966 calories a day. if i have two shakes a day, that is 500 calories. leaving me 466 calories a day for dinner and snacks. thats not a lot. lets say i have two 100 calorie snacks during the day to tide me over between shakes and dinner. that only leaves me 266 calories for dinner.

i can do it. its just about portion control. ACK!

this is based on burning 1925 calories a day. i did a quick google seach, and found that your resting calorie burn is about 10x your weight. i weigh 183. so im buring 1830 calories a day, doing, apparently, nothing. so even if i burn only 100 calories a day on wii fit i will be good to go with 966 calories a day.

but if i can burn 250 calories a day, then i could eat 1121 calories a day. my calorie restriction is 959 calories. so i have to subtract that from whatever im buring during the day. what i would like to do is limit my calorie intake to 966. and work out as much as possible on the wii fit and going for walks with the baby and what not - and see if i cant lose the weight faster. i think that it will come off faster in the beginning. and as i get closer to my goal weight things will get slower and harder.

ps. im sure there were will be days where i burn more than an additional 250 calories. in fact id like that to be the case at least 4 days a week. but the other 3 days of the week, i want to do at least 100 calorie burn on the wii fit.

weigh in - week 2

2010-01-04T10:11:00.000-08:00

i skipped a week of weigh ins. it was christmas and what not. and no one wants to know what they weight after they've consumed a 20 pound turkey.

i did weight myself on saturday. and i was at 183. so over the holidays i gained back the one singular pound i previously lost.

im not too sad. i have 22 weeks before my trip to idaho and family pictures.
even if i stuck to my two pounds a week goal, i'd lose all the weight id want, and be about what i weighed in high school. can you stand the nonsense? i would even be happy losing 7 pounds a month - which would be 35 pounds by the trip. i think that will be my minimum goal - 35 pounds. and 45 pounds will be my ultimate goal.

its going to mean some serious hard work i think. nathan seems more committed than before to losing the weight. it really is about pictures. having ourselves photographed and seeing our fatness on display is no fun. but we really want to have some family photos. in our home. displayed.

i started out this morning by having a shake. im going to try really hard to stick with the shakes for two meals a day during the week. weekends, probably not. just because it seems harder.

nathan lost a lot of weight doing the shakes. i find it a little bit more difficult to stick to the shakes, since im home all day, and i get bored, and want to eat. but im just going to have to tough it out. and drink more water!!! that is my downfall for sure.

i didnt work out at all the last two weeks while we celebrating the holidays. sad, i know. so im going to get back on track today. and on that note, im off to get on the wii fit.

weigh in - week 1

2009-12-21T13:46:00.000-08:00

i weighed in on friday. i was 182. so a pound down. not exactly what i was hoping for. but ill take it.

i think the coming week and even the week after will be especially hard, being that its christmas and all the family will be in town.

i got the new wii fitness plus game. its nice because it can do continuous exercises and i dont have to go back to the menu every two minutes to select a new exercise. it also counts calories based on your weight and length of time you do an activity. i really like that - it gives me an easier way to set and reach goals.

when i used to go to the gym, id use the ellipitcal for 20-25 minutes, burning 500 calories. i would always want to burn 500 before i got off the machine - for whatever reason its just a nice goal to have.

all that being said - i have not been as good the last few days with my work out. like i said - family and friends are in town, and it gets a little hectic. but im off now, to use the wii. so ill be sure to weigh in on friday or saturday and give ya the update.
-n

2009-12-15T18:41:00.001-08:00

Food Blog Day One:

I had a chewy bar for breakfast

tuna sandwich and cup of dumpling soup for lunch

And right now I am broiling fish for dinner

I feel good about todays menu, but I could do a lot better.

Bloggin bout my bangin body... hahahaha

2009-12-14T23:32:00.000-08:00

Hi I am Rachel, I am 21 and so out of shape. I just recently began blogging, however my sister who is 6 years older than me is a pro at this soo please don't compare our writing skills. Nicole and I are very close, I mean of course we have our off days which is usually like the 4th or 5th day of hanging out non stop so it's understandable. Anyways, Nicole thought it would be a good idea to start a blog on our future weight loss and I agreed, anything that will motivate me a little more is a great idea. I am 5'4 and I am pretty sure overweight. I just joined a gym again and I weighed myself about 3 weeks ago and I was at 152.. uhhh this is soo embaressing, Nicole didn't think I would actually blog about my weight but if I don't I feel like i have nothing to look back on. right? I have my goals and I really want to reach them sooner than later, I am no math person so I can't tell you how many lbs a week and how many by June 1oth but i do know I want my end goal to be at around 135. I go to the gym on average about four days a week, I do cardio on the tred for 20 to 25 min then I do 10 min abs, 10 min weight, 10 min abs, and squats. I have super strong legs thanks to four years of cheerleading and dance for practically my whole life. So squats are nothing really I do about 155 to 175 lbs on a good day. free weights are hard for me I am working on my balance and abs are my favorite i mean who doesn't love the burn in your tummy after a long hard work out? My real problem to my weight loss is food. Nicole and I grew up with dinner on the table every night and pop tarts and cereal in the morning and im pretty sure our mom made us yuck yuck spam sandwiches. Soo not that I make dinner every night or have breakfast or lunch I find my self in my busy days not hungry then starving and I run to the stupid vending machine at school and get a gatorade and cheetos... gross.. So I need to start a food journal which I am going to do on here, I am hoping by writing the bad stuff on here I can start to realize how nasty it is and how i can get skinny faster without that shizz...

I will start my journal tomorrow morning and I swear to myself and my blogger followers that I will be 100% honest!

thats all for tonight! good luck to anyone that is trying to be skinny!